Wednesday, November 9, 2011

My Beautiful Daughter, Rowan

Oh, My Love...

You will also will never know the depths of my love for you.  You are the sweetest little girl who has ever graced this planet.  You are so very special.  I am so lucky to also have the honor to raise you as My Daughter.  My Love for you is greater than any I have ever known...my love for you is greater than that of my own daughter who I gave birth to.  The depths of my love for you are greater than even I can understand. 

Rowan, My Love, you are such a special gift.   I know with confidence that you will impact this world in ways that none of us can yet imagine.  Always allow your joyful spirit guide you towards the desires of your heart.  You can accomplish anything you want....seize the day!! Don't ever be afraid to pursue the desires of your heart.  Don't ever allow anything to stifle your confidence, will or strength.  Your spirit is a gift you have been gift....I know you will impact lives.  You have impacted mine in ways you will never know.

At such a young age, you were faced with tragedy.  For all that you were robbed, I will forever be so sorry for your anguish and loss.  I do not think any of us will ever understand the impact that loss had upon your life.  I am sure that it changed the fibers of your existence.  But, with that loss you have perservered through so much.  You have strength beyond what you know.  And, you have an Angel who will forever be with you each step that you take.

Not only do you have that very special Angel, I will also be by your side.  I pray greatness and abundant joy for your life.  I know that you truly will be the most amazing and caring Mother EVER.  You are so sweet and so compassionate.  Your children will be blessed to call you, Mommy.

Thank you for allowing me the most amazing honor to raise you as My Daughter and for embracing me as your Mommy.  There is no greater gift than being a Mother.  And, for me, there is no greater gift than having the opportunity to be your Mother.  I will always love you!!! Forever and Always, My Love.

Love You With ALL My Heart,
Mommy

My Dearest Brett

Oh My Darling....

You will never know the gift that you are to me.   You are the very special gift that was given to me by God.  He knew so very well what I would need to sustain me through those most difficult moments and darkest times.  Those times when I was feeling depleted, you alone and the one who has renewed my strength.  Your sweet, sweet spirit has revitalized my hope and renewed my joy when I no longer had any.

My prayer is for you to have a long, wonderful, and beautiful life, My Child.  I love you more than you will ever know.  I hope your spirit is never stifled by the troubles of this world, but that you will always sustain your joy and simplicity.  You are simply so sweet.  I pray that your spirit will forever impact the lives of others in the very special and impactful way that you have touched my life.  You truly are My Angel.

I pray that as you come to know your Heavenly Father you will find refuge and strength in that relationship.  I pray you will grow to know and love Him with depths greater than the sea.  His love for you is infathomable.  And, He has promised you a life ever so abundant.  I pray you hide the His Word in your heart and allow your steps to be guided by Him alone.  I know you will face trials in this life, but in those troubles always seek Him first and He will provide you will refuge and strength.

I also pray that you will someday find pure joy in your own family.  I know you will be a wonderful father.  You have had such a wonderful example of a father.  Combine that example with your beautiful spirit and you will impact the world through your children.  I have considered it a true honor to raise you as my son.  There is no greater gift a woman could be given than that of a child.  I will forever regard this position as your Mother with the highest regard.  Thank you for allowing me the honor to be your mother and for loving me as your mother.

You will never know the joy it has been for me each and every day when you wake....to hear your little feel patter across the floor and to feel you fall into my arms and embrace me.  Your love is so genuine and so pure.  Don't ever allow your love to become jaded, but always pursue that purest love.  You are amazing, My Child. 

The world is yours....you can accomplish anything you desire.  No matter what happens....no matter how time and circumstance changes our lives, always cling to and know that you CAN accomplish anything you desire.  I will forever be by your side.

With All My Love, Always & Forever,
Mommy 

And So The End Begins.....

I realize today that everything that I had hoped would never happen...is slowly happpening.  What I am not able to change will certainly kill me.  One way or another...it will kill me.  I am not the first to journey this path...and I so clearly understand the impact of the burden.  I believed it was a burden I could bear, but I now understand that this burden is simply larger than what our love is able to sustain.